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I include both my recent autobiography and my old university work on the Roman liturgy.
Don’t hesitate to order whatever interests you.
Here is my bookshop on
I include both my recent autobiography and my old university work on the Roman liturgy.
Don’t hesitate to order whatever interests you.

I have just received my printed copies of my new autobiography Priest and Sailor. It can be directly ordered from Lulu. Their printing and delivery service is incredibly efficient. Here are some prefaces that have been written:
You are definitely one of the most insightful writers I’ve encountered online and one of the most interesting. I just learned you were personally present at Econe for the infamous SSPX consecrations, for example, which blew my mind. You have a deep knowledge of the history of modern traditionalist and independent Catholicism, and all of what I know about the latter has come from what you’ve written, and much about the former. After all, as you detail in your book, you lived through the rise and fall of many of these movements.
Your story is tragic, a tale of being systematically failed by institutional Christianity. Nevertheless, your faith seems to me very deep and sensitive, rooted in something much richer and more human than authorities and canon law. A truly human Christianity is what you represent, a feeling Christianity, a wild Christianity (to steal an idea from Sheldrake), or as you call it, “Romantic Christianity.” If the modern Church doesn’t rediscover this spirit, it will surely perish.
For my sins, I am a Roman Catholic, and it’s clear to me the Church is so much poorer for managing to chase free spirits like you away. But perhaps you are richer for it, unburdened by the sterile mediocrities who deign to speak for God, who inwardly are ravening wolves, with fists full of stones and serpents.
James A. Waldrop, Jr.
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This book is a personal and intimate account of contemporary Traditionalist Catholicism, Continuing Anglicanism and Independent Sacramentalism. It has many aspects that parallel my own experience, but the events accounted here are more extreme than anything I have had to contend with. I thank God that I avoided all the abuse the author received.
The author now lives as a semi-hermit. His story is simultaneously tragic and inspiring. It is a tale of the systematic failure of institutional Christianity. It is amazing that the author remains so psychologically healthy and whole after all the trauma he has gone through. His faith is deep, and is rooted in something much richer and more human than authority and legalism. It is as if he died and is now risen again to a vision of priesthood that is prophetic and counter-cultural.
I concur with his evaluation of the SSPX et al, and of the wider plague of “clericalism” and slavish “obedience” towards manifestly wicked superiors; moreover I empathise with his emphasis on hope. With a voice as pastoral as it is prophetic, he inspires us to follow Christ, and to respond to his Mystery with integrity of soul.
Stephen Lovatt, Author, Philosopher and Scientist
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Anyone interested in the history of the smaller churches and Catholic traditionalism, will find much of interest here, given the breadth of Father Anthony’s experience. However, the primary value of this book is the author’s arrival at a different way of seeing priesthood and community, appropriate to our time. Father Anthony lives into a prophetic, mystical exercise of the priesthood. With a voice as pastoral as it is prophetic, he inspires us to follow Christ, and to respond to his Mystery with our whole person.
John Plummer, priest, academic and author of The Many Paths of the Independent Sacramental Movement
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“You are an individual,” I was often told — as an admonition — at school, which I took to mean that I enjoyed doing things my own way, not the obvious way, and not the obvious things. This distorted use or abuse of the word “individual” has happily gone out of fashion, but I will revive it here to commend this unusual life story of an individual and a polymath, Anthony Chadwick.
A multidisciplinary being and a modest one, Chadwick’s polymathy is never arrogant and he does not conflate breadth of knowledge with perfection — completeness — of knowledge. His reminiscences are thought-provoking and supremely readable, and for someone like me, who recognises many of the settings and situations, Chadwick’s observations and anecdotes sparkle and resonate. He is an inquisitive, questioning narrator, not a would-be sage imparting wisdom, and though not exactly a spiritual testament, Chadwick’s book is filled with spirituality. He is fair in his critical observations, for example of traditionalist-Catholic subculture, and never mocking; the book’s interjections of humour are welcome and never misplaced.
Like all good autobiography, this book goes beyond mere memoir and reveals much of the author’s worldview, how that worldview was formed, and which are its compass points. Chadwick himself comments on the dualist aspect of any life story, including his own — how we see ourselves and how we are seen — but in spite of the book’s two-part title, the author’s story is far from simplistic. The title is ultimately profoundly fitting — Chadwick’s story is full of sacrifices and blessings, and it reads like a solitary but rewarding voyage.
Edward Jarvis FRAS FRHistS (born 1975) is a British author of religious history, politics and theology, and an Anglican clergyman. His books address previously under-researched topics such as the Independent Sacramental Movement and aspects of the introduction of Christianity in Southeast Asia, specifically in Vietnam, Myanmar (Burma), Malaysia, and Singapore.
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Since the liturgical revisions of the late nineteen sixties to seventies, which affected both the vernacular language and manner of celebrating the Mass and other services in both the Roman Catholic and Anglican denominations; there has been an increase in the number of so-called independent churches and priests seeking to maintain the traditional forms of worship – along with a small number of umbrella groupings seeking to act as a focal point to that goal.
There have been bishops and priests operating outside the sphere of the mainstream denominations for a hundred and fifty years or more; and some would pejoratively hold that many of these individuals have been cranks, charlatans, and eccentric oddballs. My own experience in this sector has indicated to me that the vast majority of people involved are honest people who are answering God’s call upon their lives in an integral way, in accordance with how their experience of life and the wider church have revealed the divine will to them. Fr Anthony is such a person.
I came into contact with his blog writings through a mutual friend, who had suggested that with his Anglican background and similar abilities as an organist to myself, he may prove an ideal spiritual companion for common aspects of our individual journeys. That has been proven to be the case.
‘Priest and Sailor’ is an autobiographical account of Fr Anthony’s journey to priesthood, his viewpoint on ministering in a secularised environment within the framework of Continuing Anglicanism, and how the other elements of life as a musician, organ builder, and sailor have informed his ministry.
I pray that you, the reader, may be inspired by his journey and contribution to spiritual thinking; that it may deepen aspects of your own journeys of faith.
Dom Paul-Bernarde, Congregation of St Romuald, February 2026
Please see Static Website on its way out. On this page, I will reproduce the most important texts which are going to be lost from early March this year. Hostpapa have refunded the subscription they wanted from me for 2026-2029. I thank them for their honesty and professional integrity.
As this is a blog which I cannot use as web hosting, I cannot upload Word documents and pdf files. You will have to ask me for them. I can only provide a few files here.
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Sarum Missal in English Continue reading
I have cancelled the website As the Sun in its Orb for reasons of the host’s subscriptions tripling over the past couple of years. Here are the two main pages, but many of the links will soon be dead. If you write a comment and ask me for the text in question, I will send it. The links to outside sites will still work.
I have had suggestions for free web hosts, but the domains are not free. Retired and living on a modest pension, I am sick and tired of being taken for some glitzy company selling whatever! If you need a Word doc or pdf file, just ask me in a comment and I’ll send it to you from my hard disk.
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The Use of Sarum
The Church of Salisbury shines as the sun in its orb among the Churches of the whole world in its divine service and those who minister it, and by spreading its rays everywhere makes up for the defects of others. Bishop Giles de Bridport c.1256
This page has been around for about eight years, during which quite a lot of water flowed under the bridge. In 2005, I joined the TAC directly under Archbishop Hepworth’s Patrimony of the Primate and attended the College of Bishops meeting in Portsmouth in October 2007, officially as a translator. Bishop Peter Elliott, an Australian Roman Catholic prelate and former Anglican, encouraged hopes that Sarum would at least be an option in the yet future Ordinariates. Disillusioned in late 2011 and 2012 and “orphaned” by the Archbishop’s downfall, I did not apply to the Ordinariate but joined the ACC in April 2013. At this stage, I separate my work of reviving the Use of Sarum from my ecclesiastical title as a priest. I celebrate the Use of Sarum with the blessing of my Bishop, but it is not my Church’s official rite.
Time has shaped and developed my essential philosophy of this question, my attitude in regard to liturgical codification and reform as was characteristic of the Reformation;, the Counter-Reformation and the Liturgical Movement of the twentieth century. I go into these considerations in my introduction, because Sarum and other historical local rites are not for me a mere subject of academic study.
The question of reviving the present-day use of the Sarum liturgy is one of both love and hate. Most Anglicans and Roman Catholics, especially English and American, have been trained that positive law and authority outweigh jurisprudence and immemorial custom. There is also the notion that a custom falls if it is not maintained continuously, leaving only the 1570-1962 Roman liturgy, the Novus Ordo, the various Anglican Prayer Books or the new or experimental service books containing creations by liturgical “experts”. For me and a few others, there is a true need to revive medieval liturgical usages in the same spirit as the rites of Milan, the Dominicans, Rouen and the prevailing situation in France up to the mid nineteenth century (some remnants of local usages survived in areas like Normandy until the 1990’s).
There is no prospect of any large-scale revival of Sarum, even in the Continuing Anglican Churches. It will be gone again when I “kick the bucket” and my own use of it is irrelevant since I do not have a stable community of clerics and lay people. The greatest hope is continuing the work of university dons in the mid nineteenth century, men like Percy Dearmer and those who were influenced by the Arts & Crafts movement that fell into irrelevance on the outbreak of World War I. This site is intended to help keep the pot simmering, as is the purpose of some sites to which I link.
Sarum liturgical books are hard to find, and when they do turn up as rare books in second-hand bookshops, the asking price is often high. The Latin edition by Dickinson and the English editions by Warren and Pearson are available from the Internet in pdf format. It suffices to collate the pages into a DTP programme and bind the books. Work is being done to publish Sarum texts and the plainchant books for both the Mass and the Office.
This part of my site is dedicated to promoting the Use of Sarum and helping readers to understand its significance in the Anglican patrimony as a liturgical standard for supplementing familiar Anglican rites and usages, the Prayer Book in particular.
I will add files to this page from time to time, and will also collate valuable material from my Sarum e-mail list and its archives.
Facebook groups
Use of Sarum with 448 members as of September 2016. Another group worth joining is Medieval Catholicism and Culture with 2,569 members.
Blog posts on Sarum and Liturgy
Major Resources
Most of the links below from archive.org open pages with available texts (no longer under copyright) in various formats including pdf or text format for re-editing and printing.
Videos and Practical
Further reflections
Please note, as mentioned above, these “reflections” were written in 2011-2012 when I was in the TAC and Archbishop Hepworth’s situation was not yet clear. There were still naïve hopes that Anglicanorum coetibus would involve the corporate union of the TAC with Rome in spite of Archbishop Hepworth’s irregular situation as a former Roman Catholic priest and being divorced and remarried. Having left the TAC to join the ACC, I am no longer thinking in that perspective (the Ordinariates are what they are), but I see little point in rewriting these articles. We all change as circumstances force us to evolve and learn in life.
To study the Use of Sarum
I recommend the following links to articles about Sarum (academic and historical):
Files to copy onto your hard disk
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Practical Sarum Revival work – Victorian Ritualism and in our own time : links to choral groups, interested laymen and priests
Victorian Ritualist era
[Note: Percy Dearmer did not attempt to revive the Use of Sarum, but to adapt the Prayer Book by the introduction of Sarum customs.]
Contemporary
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A few days ago, I found this horrifying text on Facebook. It is a question asked of an internet-based AI system. AI plagiarises everything it has received from human writings, and then uses an algorithm to imitate human reasoning. It might seem uncanny but it smells “off”. Read the text for yourself with a bucket at your side and ready for if you feel sick :
An interesting response shared from GeminiAI:
Why are homosexuals attracted to Latin Mass and Anglo Catholic culture?
The attraction of gay men to the Traditional Latin Mass (TLM) and Anglo-Catholicism is a well-documented phenomenon that historians and sociologists often call the “Bells and Smells” affinity. This connection is not usually about agreeing with conservative politics, but rather a deep-seated pull toward aesthetics, mystery, and historical sanctuary.
Here are the primary reasons for this attraction:
- The “Aesthetic of Resistance”
Historically, high-church environments (with their incense, ornate vestments, and elaborate choreography) offered a space that felt “separate” from the mundane, often judgmental world.
* Sensory Richness: For many, the visual and auditory beauty of a Solemn High Mass or a Latin liturgy provides an emotional and “queer” sensibility—a focus on drama and beauty that contrasts with the “beige,” utilitarian feel of many modern churches.
* Symbolic Language: In the 19th and early 20th centuries, Anglo-Catholicism was a subculture where men could express a “difference” through symbolism, ritual, and art without having to use explicit labels that were socially dangerous at the time.
- Homosocial Spaces and Celibacy
Historically, the priesthood and monastic life offered a “religiously sanctioned” alternative to marriage.
* A Way Out: Before gay identity was widely accepted, becoming a priest or monk was a way for a man to avoid the social pressure to marry a woman while still maintaining high social status.
* Intellectual and Fraternal Bonds: High-church traditions often emphasize intense, chaste male friendships and “homosocial” environments (all-male choirs, guilds, and clergy houses), which provided a sense of community and belonging.
- Objective Truth vs. Personal Judgement
While it might seem counterintuitive for gay people to seek out “traditional” or “strict” spaces, the formalism of the Latin Mass can actually feel safer for some:
* The “Privacy” of Ritual: In a traditional Latin Mass, the priest faces away from the congregation (ad orientem), and the liturgy is fixed and unchanging. There is less “personal” interaction or focus on the individual’s private life compared to a modern, “low-church” evangelical setting where there is often a high pressure for personal testimony and social scrutiny.
* Transcendence: The focus is on the “Mystery of God” rather than the “Community of Man.” For someone who feels like an outsider in society, a liturgy that ignores the modern world entirely can be a profound relief.
- The “Anglo-Catholic” Exception
In the Anglican/Episcopal tradition, Anglo-Catholicism has a specific history of being “High Church but Open.” * While Roman Catholic traditionalism is often doctrinally rigid, many Anglo-Catholic parishes (especially in the UK and US) are “Affirming.” They keep the incense, the Latin, and the gold vestments but are fully inclusive of LGBTQ+ people.
* This allows individuals to have the maximalist religious experience they love without the doctrinal rejection they fear.
Key Historical Figures
Several famous gay or bisexual figures were deeply attracted to these high-church aesthetics, viewing them as a refuge for the soul:
* Oscar Wilde: Drawn to the “theatricality” and beauty of Catholicism throughout his life, eventually converting on his deathbed.
* John Henry Newman: A leader of the Oxford Movement (the birth of Anglo-Catholicism) whose intense male friendships are often studied by queer historians.
* T.S. Eliot: An Anglo-Catholic whose poetry deeply reflects the tension between traditional form and modern identity.
Would you like to know more about the “Oxford Movement” and how it changed the way people experienced the church?
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My first critical impression of this text is the dialectic polarised mentality of many of our contemporaries. It is the “all-or-nothing” without any nuance or consideration of the imaginative and creative mind. My immediate reaction is that it can go either way : a claim by the “queer”, “LGBTQ+” world over a liturgical Christianity ignoring that many gentle and sensitive heterosexual people can also be attracted to the same without being aggressive ideologues and rigid bigots – the other position perhaps implied as might be expressed by low-church Anglicans and progressive Roman Catholics would be that high-church liturgy and aesthetics are immoral by association. The terms used like queer and the acronym LGBTQ+ (lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, queer, and more) would suggest the former of the two positions.
I am quite puzzled by the use of the term queer, originally used to mean bizarre, odd or abnormal. We hear in Yorkshire There’s now’t so queer as folk, meaning that other people are not necessarily homosexual but hard to understand because of eccentricities or particularities. It then became used pejoratively to designate people who deviated from heterosexuality. In the 1920’s and 30’s, the word would be used by homosexual men to differentiate themselves from effeminate or “camp” men, to award themselves a title of middle class respectability and discretion. After World War II, queer in this meaning fell out of fashion and was eventually replaced by the word gay. Queer came again to be used pejoratively by heterosexual people in regard to any known homosexual. “Are you queer ? I’ll smash your face in, you puff !”
In our own century, it has been used by homosexual people as an identifying label. The word was then extended to describe cultural and political interests. The word is contained in the LGBTQ+ acronym. It seems to be associated with radical gender and sexual identity liberation, but not exclusively.
One puzzling use of this word is to make a verb of it, queering or to queer. It is used in academia as an interpretive key to read and understand texts and literature from a viewpoint other than heterosexual. It moved from gender and sexuality to other systems of oppression and identity politics. It is a part of what some call “Woke” ideology, perhaps inspired by Marxist critical theory. I personally refuse all these terms and other slogans and words used to draw people into mass collectivist ideologies.
Perhaps, some who follow these ideologies or allow themselves to be known as homosexuals are attracted to “camp” Bells and Smells Anglo-Catholicism.
My dears, next Sunday, we have, not one, but two bishops and an orchestra!
If it hangs, put a tassel on it. If it moves, incense it.
I have heard such things in London churches displaying an extreme degree of shallowness.
An “Aesthetic of Resistance” ? This is not a concept with which I am familiar – taking refuge from the modern world of brutalism and ugliness. Perhaps these were characteristics that drew working class people in the Victorian era living in the slums in dire poverty. Anglican priests of that era led exemplary spiritual lives and risked everything for illegal liturgical practices or rites other than the plain low-church 1662 Prayer Book. What I want to say is that many of us are attracted by liturgical beauty without identifying in any particular way in our personal lives.
In the past, a layman who was not married by a certain age was considered as suspect. The celibate priesthood and monastic life have often been accused as providing a cover. I have known many priests and monks who do not seem to have been so insecure, but rather acted on a sense of vocation stemming from their spiritual lives. Those who aspire to social status have a lot to learn ?
* The “Privacy” of Ritual: In a traditional Latin Mass, the priest faces away from the congregation (ad orientem), and the liturgy is fixed and unchanging. There is less “personal” interaction or focus on the individual’s private life compared to a modern, “low-church” evangelical setting where there is often a high pressure for personal testimony and social scrutiny.
This observation must surely refer to different kinds of personality between extroverts and introverts. Personally, I abhor parties and small talk. Life for me is richer in small groups of friends and time spent alone for prayer and study. Not being attracted to Evangelical praise services or modern liturgies has nothing to do with sexual questions.
* Transcendence: The focus is on the “Mystery of God” rather than the “Community of Man.” For someone who feels like an outsider in society, a liturgy that ignores the modern world entirely can be a profound relief.
Again, this has nothing to do with homosexuality but a spiritual and mystical notion of Christianity that I share.
As for the opposition between Anglo-Catholicism with its openness and the rigidity of Roman Catholic traditionalism, I understand the question about who is “included”. It depends on individual parishes. I wish they would not be LGBTQ+ inclusive as an ideology but rather respect people who respect the majority, a question of doing to others as you would have them do to you. Roman Catholic traditionalists can be very inquisitorial in regard to unmarried laymen!
Oscar Wilde was above all a Romantic in his thinking and understanding of individual freedom. He was a victim of his own imprudence by suing the Marquis of Queensberry for the nasty visiting card. His In Carceris et Vinculis written during his imprisonment is a particularly moving piece of writing, expressing his suffering. Of course, he was attracted to Catholicism by beauty as well as truth and goodness.
Myself, music was my evangelist, not some Bible-bashing fanatic !
I see no justification for “queering” the story of John Henry Newman. If he had sexual relations with his friends, let the accuser produce proof ! So it goes on and on in the same dreary way. All this stuff makes me want to continue to take refuge from this noisy and violent modern world. The piece by Mendelssohn inspired by Psalm 55 comes to mind.
Hear my prayer, O God, incline Thine ear!
Thyself from my petition do not hide.
Take heed to me! Hear how in prayer I mourn to Thee,
Without Thee all is dark, I have no guide.The enemy shouteth, the godless come fast!
Iniquity, hatred, upon me they cast!
The wicked oppress me, Ah where shall I fly?
Perplexed and bewildered, O God, hear my cry!My heart is sorely pained within my breast,
my soul with deathly terror is oppressed,
trembling and fearfulness upon me fall,
with horror overwhelmed, Lord, hear me call!O for the wings, for the wings of a dove!
Far away, far away would I rove!
In the wilderness build me a nest,
and remain there for ever at rest.
I have already introduced a couple of posts with the title of an encyclical that Pius XI had written in German in 1937, a translation of the title being “It is with deep anxiety and growing surprise…” in reaction to the growing evil in Germany and the coming war that was only two to three years away for most of Europe. Today, we are worried about the increasing bureaucratic overreach of the European Union and the World Economic Forum. They increasingly represent a kind of abstract intellectualism that cares nothing for real human needs in persons and local communities.
I am habitually silent about politics because I am as much a victim of propaganda and lies as anyone else. It is by this means that the Archons control us and cancel out any resistance. Their intention is the same as any dictatorship like that of Hitler, Stalin, Mao, Mussolini and many others. Human persons and imagination must be obliterated in the interest of the collective, whether it be a nation or something like what the EU is becoming. A few years ago, I opposed the British government’s decision to separate from the EU in the name of many ideals we cherish in our Islands, but time has proven that the increasing socialist collectivism walks in lockstep with Brussels, even before the election of Starmer. I approach this issue, not from the point of view of someone’s angry ideology and emotional protest, but from the origins of European idealism in the advent of the Romantic movement in the 1790’s. We all know what happened in France in those years – an earlier form of the murderous ideology that keeps rearing its hideous head.
The voice of God is music – harmony, counterpoint, rhythm, form, inspiration – a whole language that words alone cannot convey. Music can be an instrument of revelation, or one of control and evil. I write this little piece with J.S. Bach’s Kunst die Fugue played by Lionel Rogg on the modern baroque organ of Geneva Cathedral. This work was left unfinished at the point where three fugue subjects converged into a climax, and then fizzled out. Lionel Rogg plays the fugue a second time, but with his own composition in a conjecture of what the Master might have written. There is a story going round that two pieces of Bach have just been found in Leipzig. If they are authentic, I hope and pray they will be published so that I can buy a copy.
It is now a very long time since I was a deacon in the Roman Catholic Church, and I was finally away from that situation in late 1997 after my stay at Triors Abbey. I wandered into the sedevacantist vagante scene and that turned out to be an exercise in cognitive dissonance. Between conservative Roman Catholicism and sedevacantism, it sufficed to return to Anglican ecclesiology which concords with the old Dutch Old Catholic view. I was also reinforced in my intuition by contrasting the rural parish against the bureaucracy of the elites – exactly like in modern politics.
I have just published the Sarum Kalendar for 2025 to 2026. The pdf has not reproduced the versicle and response symbols. Download the doc version if you have Microsoft Office on your computer.
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https://civitas-dei.eu/Sarum%20Ordo%202025-2026-small.doc
Please inform me of any errors and I can correct them before the first Sunday of Advent arrives.
I have been particularly struck by two YouTube videos, one by Jean-Dominique Michel who is a Swiss anthropologist and expert in mental health, specialising in depression and addictions, and speaking on the sovereign importance of spirituality. However, it is not the subject of this essay. The second is this :
The Russian Old Believers